To borrow poignant words from one of
America’s greatest thinkers: “Since I
wrote before, I know something more of the grounds of hope and fear of what is
to come. But if my knowledge is greater,
so is my courage. I know that I know
next to nothing, but I know too that the amount of probabilities is vast, both
in mind and in morals.” Today,
waiting in the Spirit lounge of the Miami airport (which already feels like I’m
in Latin America), I am reminded of the last time I packed my life into a bag
and decided to venture around the globe.
That day, waiting for a thunderstorm to pass over the Oklahoma City
airport (which resembled nothing of Latin America), I was full of angst and
anguish, anxiety and audacity, I couldn’t stop staring out the emblematic
window of my heart to the rest of my future.
Today, I am an entirely different being than I was then. Today, I am shockingly void of
butterflies. Today, I have waited
patiently sans tears and sans sentimental stares out windows
(emblematic or literal). I don’t feel
like I’m holding my breath for the next moment of my life, and that feels
good. Today, my knowledge is greater and
so is my courage. Today, I know that I
know next to nothing, but I know too that the road ahead of me is full of
opportunities for which I have the courage and knowledge to enjoy.
There is something sweet about my
moment right now, where my mind lays in this calm haze. I take pleasure in knowing that this absence
of fear, this ease of anguish based on a past of dreams of achieved, this moment is peculiar and unrivaled in
all of the whole universe. This is my emotion. This is my life that I am living. I am homesteading new ground, uninhabited
ground, because it is new and uninhabited to me.
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